Archive for March, 2008

Against all the odds

March 31, 2008

Phew! I’ve just arrived back from a very tiresome LAN. It was tons of fun I’ll say that much, it started on Friday, and went through to late afternoon Sunday. I bailed out a bit earlier on Saturday evening; I thought giving me a day to recover would help. Well now I have the lovely job of sorting through all the stuff I got there. :D I’ll Say more about this later on when I have photographic proof.

Today I’ll briefly share something I got at the LAN. You should see it below:

This made me laugh my ass off, seriously it’s funny! I’m always one for parody, and this one just seemed to hit my buttons. It got me thinking about Heroism. I know (thinking back to the movie 300) that it creates a warm feeling inside, when you know that good is going to win, despite the odds. But I’ve got to be a cynic. Isn’t Heroism just Glorified Stupidity? I mean if I saw a whole army coming into where I lived, and about to rape our women and children, murder a few, make slaves of us…you know the deal. I wouldn’t say something like “Sure, go for it.” I’d probably scream, and say something like “We’re all going to die! AAAAHHHH, lets get the fuck OUTTA HERE!”

I don’t mind standing up for my own ideals, but to know that you’re not going to win. I’m sure some heroes go into a situation thinking “yeah there’s a bit of a chance I’ll come through…I’ll do it.” That I don’t mind…if someone else does it obviously. Then you’ll get a blundering Leonidas who’ll stand up to save what is precious to him (at all costs). I admire him, I mean heck, someone’s gotta do it.

Look I’m glad we’ve heroes and legends to look up to, I’m also glad there’s plenty jobs to go around to Nationalists. (The I’m-standing-up-for-my-principles people.)

Later fellow Spartans…

PhilosopherPoet

Medicine…natural or clinical?

March 27, 2008

I’ve been hanging around in the blues. My wisdom teeth are giving me hassles, they got infected, this drained into my jaw, and wham I’ve been sick at home. It’s not much fun being sick at home. When you think about being sick at home, you think about doing cool things. Lying in bed stuffing your face with chocolate. Firstly you can’t lie in bed, cos it has to be made, the Doctor tells you that you can’t have chocolate, so it becomes kind of depressing. The worst bit is when people see you around so much they start to forget that you’re sick, and load all the household chores back on you.

 

I’ll move now onto the pains of the Doctor. I’ve got a bit of a battle on my head about whether homeopathy or traditional anti-biotics (knock ‘em down and nail ‘em medicine) is the right one. To be honest I’ve actually made up my mind, I prefer the homeopathy route, letting my body fight for itself, and then accept the clinical route, when it comes to serious things (like wisdom teeth being extracted from your jaw). I just find it irritating when you go with a problem to a doctor and they throw a bottle of pills at you.

 

I want a sympathy hug, and a ‘I know how you feel’ gesture. I don’t get that from me Homeopath, but maybe I just have a strong reaction to the medical guys. I think people also aren’t willing to believe in the homeopathy because they like the idea of being able to nuke things with scheduled drugs, or even normal aspirins. Homeopathic medicine can be just as strong it just takes a belief in your body.

 

Don’t get me wrong the natural medicine can be potent, just not always as fast-acting. So my advice would be don’t do drugs…do twigs, leaves, smelly oils!

 

PhilosopherPoet

Imperfect Easter Eggs

March 23, 2008

Easter gives me a small burst of excitement, just like any kid, although theirs is probably a big burst. Moving on…I get really annoyed with Easter eggs. Don’t get me wrong I love the chocolate. I slowly unwrap it, then stick my thumb in the middle of it, and eat away the shards. You also get different shapes and sizes. You can even mutilate a rabbit, by biting its ears off and work your way to its feet.

 

There’s only one problem to all this…THE SEAM!

 

There’s that slight seam staring at you, embedded on the egg. Greedy little kids get so amped over the chocolate I don’t think that they notice. I do it’s the one flaw that gets to me. I know its supposed to be a time when a lot people talk about nailing things, but the eggs are far more crucial.

 

 

 

By the way don’t be fooled by this egg, photography messes with your perception.

 

 

It says to me that I’m a product of commercialization, and mass production. I want to be different dammit! You can’t even try fool me with those white ones with the brown inside, because I’ll still have the seam staring at me. If you look at a normal hen’s eggs, there wasn’t an organ in its stomach gluing two halves together, and rapidly pushing them out.

 

I’m sure they can invent a perfect egg. If man can come up with the wheel, why not develop that idea into a 3D concept?

 

*sigh*

I’ll still enjoy the chocolate; it’s just something I’d like some scientist to solve.

 

Anyway, enough ranting…

 

 

PhilosopherPoet

Men and their Communication Skills

March 21, 2008

Yes, this is a hot topic that normally turns very sexist very quickly. I’ll try stay as sane as possible :P

 

Men relate differently to women. I feel like a bit of an idiot at the moment, because I was going to go to a gaming fest (known as a LAN to most geeks). It’s a very weird thing where (mostly guys) sit behind their computers and shoot the shit out of each other, not to mention trading movies, music, porn, applications and so on.

 

 

 

Women might see men as awkward when it comes to conversation, since (generally speaking to the not so sensitive guys) we need an exterior activity to get us warmed up. If I meet another guy, and go play pool with him every Thursday…we’ll feel like soul mates after a while. We might not even talk about our families and worries and concerns, but men make this weird connection through a game. It almost feels like the other person is respecting you through being with you, and challenging you.

 

We always like to fight, to challenge someone. We want to feel like the top dog in some way. I’m not saying that we’re obsessed with achieving but due to genetics (going back the cave when we were hairy bastards) we like to test our strength whether it’s physical or not.

 

I think that men have a natural independency. A man will push himself harder than a woman would, and sometimes suffer and die alone. Women are community-based. They won’t make decisions based on their own feelings, but on the feelings of the group they’re apart of. If you look at teenage girls and their cliques, it’s a perfect example. A girl will only date a guy that the others deem acceptable, and if she doesn’t the amount of shame she’ll endure from her peers will be more than uncomfortable. If she steps outside of their choices she’s challenging them, and in turn putting them on the defensive, which means isolating herself from them.

 

Luckily among adults it’s not as blatant as teenagers, but it still lingers there. Look there are obviously exceptions, but jokes like “woman are like kidneys, they always need to go to the bathroom in pairs” are there because something is sticking out.

 

So yes I’ll admit our communication skills seriously suck, we’d prefer to bash someone and speak in clicks and grunts. Although I seem to have developed a certain amount of sophistication, and can sit down and talk to someone with out having to wave around a pool queue.

 

Having a blog is clearly an indication that I have the gift of the gab…

 

PhilosopherPoet

W.B. Yeats

March 20, 2008

I’ve talked a lot about my own stuff, my own writing and how difficult some things seem to be in the writing process. Let me introduce y0ou to my inspiration. The master that started me on a path the will continue. The one and only William Butler Yeats! I got referred to him by my father and avidly started reading his stuff at the age of ten.

 

My world started to light up, and my poetry began to improve because I was swimming in really good poetry. I’ll add some of my favorites here of Yeats.

 

When You Are Old

When you are old and grey and full of sleep,

And nodding by the fire, take down this book,

And slowly read, and dream of the soft look

Your eyes had once, and of their shadows deep;

 
 

How many loved your moments of glad grace,

And loved your beauty with love false or true,

But one man loved the pilgrim soul in you,

And loved the sorrows of your changing face;

 
 

And bending down beside the glowing bars,

Murmur, a little sadly, how Love fled

And paced upon the mountains overhead

And hid his face amid a crowd of stars.

 

 

 

The Poet himself

 

 

 

 

 

Brown Penny
 

 

 

  

I WHISPERED, ‘I am too young,’
And then, ‘I am old enough’;
Wherefore I threw a penny
To find out if I might love.
‘Go and love, go and love, young man,
If the lady be young and fair.’
Ah, penny, brown penny, brown penny,
I am looped in the loops of her hair.
O love is the crooked thing,
There is nobody wise enough
To find out all that is in it,
For he would be thinking of love
Till the stars had run away
And the shadows eaten the moon.
Ah, penny, brown penny, brown penny,
One cannot begin it too soon.

 

 

The next one is one of my favorite ones…

 

 

A Prayer For My Daughter

 

Once more the storm is howling, and half hid

Under this cradle-hood and coverlid

My child sleeps on. There is no obstacle

But Gregory’s wood and one bare hill

Whereby the haystack- and roof-levelling wind,

Bred on the Atlantic, can be stayed;

And for an hour I have walked and prayed

Because of the great gloom that is in my mind.

 

I have walked and prayed for this young child an hour

And heard the sea-wind scream upon the tower,

And under the arches of the bridge, and scream

In the elms above the flooded stream;

Imagining in excited reverie

That the future years had come,

Dancing to a frenzied drum,

Out of the murderous innocence of the sea.

 

May she be granted beauty and yet not

Beauty to make a stranger’s eye distraught,

Or hers before a looking-glass, for such,

Being made beautiful overmuch,

Consider beauty a sufficient end,

Lose natural kindness and maybe

The heart-revealing intimacy

That chooses right, and never find a friend.

 

Helen being chosen found life flat and dull

And later had much trouble from a fool,

While that great Queen, that rose out of the spray,

Being fatherless could have her way

Yet chose a bandy-leggèd smith for man.

It’s certain that fine women eat

A crazy salad with their meat

Whereby the Horn of Plenty is undone.

 

In courtesy I’d have her chiefly learned;

Hearts are not had as a gift but hearts are earned

By those that are not entirely beautiful;

Yet many, that have played the fool

For beauty’s very self, has charm made wise,

And many a poor man that has roved,

Loved and thought himself beloved,

From a glad kindness cannot take his eyes.

 

May she become a flourishing hidden tree

That all her thoughts may like the linnet be,

And have no business but dispensing round

Their magnanimities of sound,

Nor but in merriment begin a chase,

Nor but in merriment a quarrel.

O may she live like some green laurel

Rooted in one dear perpetual place.

 

My mind, because the minds that I have loved,

The sort of beauty that I have approved,

Prosper but little, has dried up of late,

Yet knows that to be choked with hate

May well be of all evil chances chief.

If there’s no hatred in a mind

Assault and battery of the wind

Can never tear the linnet from the leaf.

 

An intellectual hatred is the worst,

So let her think opinions are accursed.

Have I not seen the loveliest woman born

Out of the mouth of Plenty’s horn,

Because of her opinionated mind

Barter that horn and every good

By quiet natures understood

For an old bellows full of angry wind?

 

Considering that, all hatred driven hence,

The soul recovers radical innocence

And learns at last that it is self-delighting,

Self-appeasing, self-affrighting,

And that its own sweet will is Heaven’s will;

She can, though every face should scowl

And every windy quarter howl

Or every bellows burst, be happy still.

 

And may her bridegroom bring her to a house

Where all’s accustomed, ceremonious;

For arrogance and hatred are the wares

Peddled in the thoroughfares.

How but in custom and in ceremony

Are innocence and beauty born?

Ceremony’s a name for the rich horn,

And custom for the spreading laurel tree.

 

 

 

An Irish Airman Foresees His Death

 

I know that I shall meet my fate
Somewhere among the clouds above;
Those that I fight I do not hate,
Those that I guard I do not love;
My country is Kiltartan Cross,
My countrymen Kiltartan’s poor,
No likely end could bring them loss
Or leave them happier than before.
Nor law, nor duty bade me fight,
Nor public men, nor cheering crowds,
A lonely impulse of delight
Drove to this tumult in the clouds;
I balanced all, brought all to mind,
The years to come seemed waste of breath,
A waste of breath the years behind
In balance with this life, this death.

 

 

This is quite a common portrait of the Poet.

 

 

 

He Wishes For The Cloths Of Heaven

 

Had I the heavens’ embroidered cloths,

Enwrought with the golden and silver light,

The blue and the dim and the dark cloths

Of night and light and half-light,

I would spread the cloths under your feet

But I, being poor, have only my dreams;

I have spread my dreams beneath your feet;

Tread softly because you tread on my dreams…

 

 

Down By The Salley Gardens

 

Down by the salley gardens my love and I did meet;
She passed the salley gardens with little snow-white feet.
She bid me take love easy, as the leaves grow on the tree;
But I, being young and foolish, with her would not agree.

In a field by the river my love and I did stand,
And on my leaning shoulder she laid her snow-white hand.
She bid me take life easy, as the grass grows on the weirs;
But I was young and foolish, and now am full of tears.

 

 

All the poems are by William Butler Yeats. Normally people would’ve added in the poems ‘Wild Swans at Coole’ and ‘The Second Coming’…but those ones don’t really grab me.

 

 

Enjoy the poems!

 

 

PhilosopherPoet

Funeral

March 19, 2008

I thought I’d some more light relief. I should actually be saying dark relief, since its coming from Cyanide and Happiness. After being introduced to that site about a year ago, I’m hooked. I’ve also got a thing for dark humor.

 

 

 

 

 

PhilosopherPoet

Admin blues

March 17, 2008

It’s Monday morning and work starts today :( . I’ve had to drag my corpse out of bed again, and go and face a boring job. I’m good at admin, but shuffling paper all day is kinda getting to me. I think the paper is starting to control me in a way. I also understand why now admin people are so rigid, it’s because theirs minds have been erased. After years and years of fighting it out with the accounts and invoices, their minds are warped and controlled, having only brief and curt responses left to give us.

Well, I’m kinda an outlaw plunging myself into a new system so I haven’t felt my mind being taken over yet. I will not get swallowed up by work…or have my mind erased! I’ll rather die by paper cut than get transformed into a zombie…

PhilosopherPoet

—> I may be crazy but my brain is still around XD

Reign Over Me

March 15, 2008

Another movie review…this is becoming a habit. I like to explore the themes in the movies. On one level it means what the storyline tells you, but most of the time I like to listen to the unheard voice…if that makes sense. I like to look for the subtleties, and generally (considering it’s a good film) mull over it for a day or two. I just enjoy art in general, whether it happens to be a book, film, painting, recital…etc.

 

Anyway enough of my drivel, on to the movie!

 

 

Brief Synopsis

 

This is a story about a successful dentist (Alan – Don Cheadle) who meets up with an old room mate (Charlie Fineman – Adam Sandler). Alan seems to be in a good state financially and stumbles across his old College roommate almost by accident. Charlie is in a huge mess.

 

Charlie had a great family, and was successful, but after losing his whole family in a plane crash of 9/11 he is a broken man. Alan finds him in this state. He lives by himself, is highly introverted, and has cut himself off from everyone he knew. He just spends time in his apartment, playing video games and remodeling his kitchen.

 

 

 

 

There’s clearly a lot of stuff there, because as the friendship develops Charlie has outbursts when Alan inquires about Charlie’s family. Charlie slowly starts to journey into himself in the film, and Alan grows through the experience learning to become more confident.

 

To sum up this is a film about a young man’s struggle through a psychologically (and emotionally) dark time in his life. Towards the end there’s a glimmer of hope, and some meaning in the healing process. The performances of Don Cheadle and Adam Sandler are phenomenal. I was especially impressed with Sandler’s performance in a serious role for a change. Normally he leans towards slapstick comedy, whereas in this film I was left speechless in seeing his acting ability come out.

 

 

Being Stuck

 

This film rang a few bells for me. I haven’t been down the same road as Charlie did, but I do know what its like to struggle with yourself, to fight your inner demons. I can I dentify with Charlie to an extent. I found this a very meaningful film, despite the criticism this one has faced. Maybe a bit of life experience makes a difference…

 

Charlie was stuck in his life. He was staying the same. Too traumatized to come out of his shell, he continued to live everyday in a shatter state. When his old friend came along by chance, his saw a sense of confidence that he wish he’d had, which I think is part of the reason he pursued the relationship. This movie made me cry in places, since it moved me so much to see the pain of these people.

 

I found it very powerful, but at the end of the day its all opinion…

 

PhilosopherPoet

Distant

March 14, 2008

 

The old man, hands

like broken charcoal,

watched the grey bin

 

slowly fill up, and

cough out its lungs.

 

 

 

PhilosopherPoet

 

Fingers

March 14, 2008

The small tendons

in her toes, stiffened

when she touched the

cold face.

 

She lay on the

melodic grass, it gave

a lilt to the fractured

afternoon.

 

The little girl

touched

the lady’s face.

She took off the

scarf, like a dead

vein.

 

She pressed the

bloody bundle

into her

wilted hands.

 

 

 

 

PhilosopherPoet